People come and go. In a certain part of our lives, we will meet a lot of new faces. Some become friends, some become foes, and some become nothing -- people you will soon forget and will never meet again. Some people stay, some people leave. And as the saying goes, nothing is permanent in this world except for change. People always change and people always leave. Some are intentional and some are not. Some are aware that they are changing; some are oblivious – never wanting to admit. Leave of be left, it’s your choice. But sometimes, they do come back.
There’s this girl who spent twelve years of her life having her mother as her best friend, her constant companion and her confidante. She grew up according to her parents words. They are the ones she believed in; the ones she always follow; the ones she looked up to. She grew up being protected (overprotected in her opinion) especially when they discovered that she has a heart condition. Since then, her family won’t let her break. She loves them. She really does. But sometimes, she loathes them for the way they treat her (the part where they are too protective). She feels like losing herself.
The next six years were spent with her friends and she means real friends -- people of the same age, interests, experiences, questions, level of concerns. They laugh together, worry together, cry together and celebrate almost every day of their lives together. With her friends’ help, she found her long lost self again back on the right track.
Within those eighteen years of her life, she had met a lot of new faces. They have various names, various personalities, various histories and various beliefs – some she love, some she hate and some she fake.
Among the people we meet, there will always be someone who will eventually be a very big part of our lives. You can never choose who will they be but there will always be the one. This happens to everyone but not everyone will have their happy ending. One may be a very important part of someone else’s life but that someone may mean nothing to that one. Lucky are those whose existence is given much importance, sad for those who were not.
In her case, this someone happens to be a guy, eight years senior that she is and not an ordinary one. That creates the big difference. She saw him one day, luckily she got to meet him and in an instant, she liked him. Since then, he became a huge part of her life but hers is one of that many cases where love is not reciprocated. Okay, he knows her… by name and that’s it. That’s just it. She is not in any way part of his happy-go-lucky life. So she tried to be a part of it. She made her moves. She tried to talk to him. She made some improvements on herself hoping that it would make him notice her. She studied hard and worked hard thinking that her achievements will make him realize that they’re on the same level. It didn’t. She tried so hard but in the end, she quit. She did not fail, she just quit. As a matter of fact, she almost made it.
There was even a point when they almost become friends. He would look for her if she’s not around. He would ask her friends when she’s not with them. He will just sit beside her and won’t say anything. But she did not let anything beyond that happen. She suddenly stopped seeing him. She can feel that he is also starting to like her too but she doesn’t want to assume anything and sound too desperate. She is just being cautious, too cautious may be. They can be friends, they can even be lovers but one thing is for sure, it will never last, it will not even last long. It’s just like giving her heaven and then takes it away after seeing how beautiful it is. If that is the case, she’d rather not have it. It will just shatter everything.
Despite the situation, she still makes it a point to know the latest happenings in his life but not directly from him. They have common friends. There are news, some are good and some are bad. Through their friends, she got to hear what he has been up to, his recent relationships, his troubles, his struggles and most important of all, he got to see the real him.
She is now twenty years old. She spent eighteen years of her life without him and now cannot seem to live the next years of her life without him. No matter what she does, no matter what he does, he is still a part of her life. There is nothing he can do so wrong that can change the way she feels about him. Knowing the real him just made her accept him and realize that she can accept him for whoever he is, whatever he does, did or will do. That is just how much he means to her. She doesn’t care anymore who she is to him.
People come and go. At one point in her life, she met him. She got to know him. She got to be with him. But he did not become a friend or a foe. Okay, so maybe they were friends but she changed and chose to leave, physically. It is just a matter of time and decision if she will come back. But being a part of each other’s lives, again, destiny will tell. Or maybe not. -C
