TRUST

Trust maybe is the one thing I can’t quite give to anyone. I may tell people some things but I don’t give them the whole story.  That’s one of my issues, putting my trust into someone. Maybe because every time I do, they screwed up. I may try to show some hint, but then I shut them off when they started asking questions. I may be transparent but I am very private and secretive. I may be loud but that’s not everything about me. That would also be the probable reason why people think that I am aloof and distant and at times, snob. -C-

A TEAR

                  I promised not to let a single tear fall from my eyes again crying over that same freaking reason. But forgive my broken promise for it’s really that hard. It’s hard that I cannot do anything about it; it’s hard that I have no other options but to obey; it’s hard that I cannot talk back to lessen the weight inside my heart; it’s hard that when I share these feelings, nobody seems to feel me, really feel me; it’s hard that when I try to bare my soul to the person concerned, I am rude and envious and pathetic. -C-

A FRIEND IN HEAVEN

This was the last poem I wrote last Sept. 5, 2007. Inspired by a friend and classmate who passed away at the age of 19. A friend who is always ready whatever God may decide. He is the kindest person I have ever known. A friend who is always ready to die for a reason we do not understand. I miss you, friend. This one's for you:

Death ends only a life and not a relationship.

The friendship that we had will always stay.

You will always be the memory that we, your friends, will treasure.

The goodness you've shared will keep you alive.

Now, I realize, truly life is so short.

A good guy like you has inspired so many lives.

That, maybe, is your purpose for you are with Him now.

We, your friends, are hoping...

that you have done what you wanted to do;

that you have reached the place you wanted to be;

that you have lived your life the way you wanted it.

The music you used to play;

the words you used to say;

are now memories if I may say.

May you rest in peace, now I pray.

Goodbye... -C-

MORE THAN JUST A SONG

I was in review school when I first heard this song and I was captivated by Danny's voice (of course I didn't know his name back then). I was so touched by the lyrics and I knew from that moment that this man or this band or whoever is that singing, will definitely be one of my favorites. Plus the fact that they are from Ireland. Irish people will always have that certain part of my heart. -C-

The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script 

Songwriters: Frampton, Andrew Marcus; Kipner, Stephen Alan; O Donoghue, Daniel John; Sheehan, Mark Anthony

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do
How can I move on when I've been in love with you

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

Policeman says son you can't stay here
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl, oh whoa
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'Cause you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we meet
Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street

So I'm not moving
('Cause if one day you wake up, find that you're missing me)
I'm not moving
(And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be)
I'm not moving
(Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet)
I'm not moving
(Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street)

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move


Download link:

http://www.mediafire.com/?ss2hmz2dqu1gtrm 

OBSESSED

Why is everybody so obsessed with love when all it brings is pain, hurt and heartaches? 

Why is everybody so obsessed with love when all you'll be is silly, stupid and insane? 

Why is everybody so obsessed with love when all you do is stoop down, lose your pride and give your everything? 

Why is everybody so obsessed with love when it expects you to sacrifice, let go and suffer?

Why is everybody so obsessed with love when it is so uncertain that you have to take a risk, try and hope?

The answers is simple. LOVE is the greatest feeling that can stand all kinds of pain, justify even the most stupid act, trade everything that you have, survive the hardest battle and face the highest downfall. LOVE is so great that you'll be willing to do everything to taste the sweetest victory in life. -C-

MY OWN STEP

They say being left without any choice is hard. But I realize having too many options is not a very easy situation either. Nevertheless, I am thankful where I am now because whatever I choose, it's time for me to step it up.

Thank You, Lord! -C-

SHUT UP

I've been thinking of creating my own live journal for days now and finally, I have decided to put my plans into actual work. Hence, this blog. Taisez-vouz is the French translation for shut up. I read it from one of Robert Ludlum's Bourne Series. I have my reasons for naming it that but I'm still thinking if I should share it here. I reckon I won't (*grinning*). -C-

Usher Live in Manila

                This is my ultimate wish for this year, 2010, for Usher to come and visit Manila and do one hot and sexy show. God is so great. He made it happen, not a VIP seat though. Don’t get me wrong, I ain’t complaining. Seeing Usher performs in front of me (of us) is more than just a dream. He is one R’nB royalty doin’ sultry dance, singing hot songs and showing sexy grin like a flash of dental lightning. There’s too much hotness that night, I know. And only Usher can do such a thing, heating things up just like that. It's like he never took a break, never left at all. Nothing's changed. He’s still rockin’ it. Yeah man!                 

               It was a Friday. I was supposed to have a class. Actually, I have a class but I quit it after 3 weeks of trying to do work in the morning and school at night. I realized I can’t do it after hearing about Usher coming over and doing a concert and that night falling on a Friday. Nah! I was just kidding. I just can’t do both -- Law school and work. My friend, Rjay, wants to see the show but is having second thoughts about the silver ticket. So I had to use my convincing power which I’m sure I lack but looks like luck is in my hands. Our parent company is one of the sponsors so we (the employees) are entitled for a 20% discount. In short, we got the tickets for only Php 3,326. So it’s on. I am going and I am not alone.

                The show started at 8:10 with South Border and KRIS LAWRENCE opening. Yes, I had to type KL’s name in all caps and bold because he wasn’t introduced, twice, first by the MC and second by Nina herself. I’m sorry but I think it was rude and careless (#justsaying). SB and KL performed two songs together, Nina did one. Then all of them performed one song together and by 8:35 SB and KL performed their last song. There was a 30-minute break after that. And then…                 Manila!!! Make some noise for Usheeeerrrrrr!  Waaaaahhh! I got crazy! Everybody went up to their feet. Everybody wants to have a good look. Some used the monoblock chairs, some made their boyfriends’ shoulders useful, some just tiptoed, and some are just lucky enough to be tall and towering. Good thing one of the big screens is right next to us. I know I mentioned that we got silver tickets but it’s not enough to see him sweating up there. The opening song was Caught Up. He's wearing all white, dancing sexy and looking hot! Then You Make Me Wanna, U Remind Me, and Bad Girl. Then time to change costume. Uhm, not really, he just decided it was getting humid so he removed one shirt. Body-fitting sando! Whew! Aircon please! Haha! Stop taking your clothes off baby. And of all songs, he did Trading Places pa. The song itself is already sensual, what more if you can see Usher interpreting and demonstrating the song? Scorching! It was something else. Ooppps! Sorry. *biting my lower lip and then my index finger*                

                He said he appreciates all the new supporters and they are very welcome but the next song is for the fans who've been there since the very start. Nice and Slow. ♪♫♪ U-S-H-E-R, R-A- Y-M-O-N-D hey baby tell me what you wanna do ♪♫♪ ;) Everybody was singing along to the song. Then it was followed by all the big hit songs -- Burn, Confessions (Part 2), Love in this Club, Hey Daddy (Daddy's Home), and You Don't Have to Call. Hit after hit after hit. It was tiring yet fulfilling. I was running out of breath and sweating, singing and dancing, rapping and not rapping.
 
                He took some time trying to catch his breath too. He introduced his dancers while trying to sing a medley of Lil’ Freak and You Got it Bad. "Take it off!" haha! Sorry Usher, you got some naughty fans in here. Actually, he said he was willing to do what we want him to; the problem is that there might be or there are some laws prohibiting that act. So he was asking, if he does that, are we willing to contribute to bail him out of jail? I was thinking, I won’t let you strip in front of them baby. You don't have to do that. Strip just in front of me hahaha.

                  Moving on, he did the medley of My Boo, I Need a Girl and Lover’s Friend. Then his latest single, There Goes My Baby from his album Raymond vs. Raymond which I can say is another hot, hot video. He did some beatboxin’ after that, trying to invent a song and trying to come up with a chant that he can get the crowd singing along. It was so funny he was laughing at his own words. He can’t find the right lyrics. He was so beautiful by just grinning. I don’t know if he’s aware of that.

                Last song was Yeah and he got his swag back after failing to think of the words to his beatbox sound. I’m still amused J He said goodbye and everyone start chanting O-M-G! O-M-G! O-M-G! He cannot do a show without singing it. It was his latest hit after all. The encore, there he was, Oh My Gosh! The last set of costume was a black shirt still showing the sexy bulge on his chest, arms and stomach. You know what it is. A bandana is hanging on his neck like a bandit. That was an amazing performance, amazing singing and dancing ability. Only a few artists can really sing and dance simultaneously. After OMG, there was nothing, it was over, but looks like nobody wants to leave the venue afraid that they might miss something. In the end, we all have to move on.

                So there! Trivia: Usher went shopping at Greenbelt 4 and 5 and I am still sulking at the thought that we (our office) are just a few steps away from the said mall and I didn’t get to see him. We (my officemates and I) always spend some time there after lunch just to brush off some work pressure and I don’t know why that day, we decided not to. I am so jealous of a friend of an officemate who get to see him and shoot a short video of him shopping. It should have been me! He even tried riding a jeepney outside the mall and all the while I was just inside the office clicking away on my keyboard ;(

photo from www.luirocks.blogspot.com

                  But still, Usher, you are the sexiest thing ;) -C

Changing Lives Concert

                 

                 I have this fear of being too early for a call time so I tend to wait and kill some time to the point where I always end up being late. This Changing Lives concert is no different. I was feeling so excited that I was thinking if I go to the venue ahead of time, I will be teased and accused of being overly excited which is very true. It’s just that I don’t want my friends to notice. I know there is nothing wrong with that but I feel like I am showing too much emotions on everything. So I was just trying to… Okay, enough of the babble. There wasn’t enough time and the traffic was bad and I was late.

                We meet at the always-meeting-place McDonald’s and we went by the bay to have some dinner. I can’t remember the name of the restaurant because I was looking at the concert venue the whole time. Okay maybe not the whole time but I’m still not sure of the diner, Classic Savory I think. Alright, it doesn’t matter. We made our way to the concert grounds where people are already filling up.

                I was with a friend and two of my officemates. We were on the Silver section, a step up for me because I always watch from there, at the back. And by the way, my ticket was a birthday gift from my officemates last March 9. 

                We were already standing there at 8-ish and by 9-ish we’re already wondering why there was still no sign of them. Then we just assume that they probably let the Earth Hour finish first before they started. SM Mall of Asia was promoting it after all. The show started at 10pm, an hour later after the said event.

                Going to the venue, I was thinking how Timbaland is supposed to do a show when he is all about auto-tune? And how am I supposed to enjoy a performance from a person I am not a fan of? I was just there for Justin Timberlake who, at that point in time, is not even certain to be doing a live performance. It turned out I didn’t have to think after all. You don’t have to be a fan to enjoy his music. I loved his $#!* beats! If every club mix sounds like that, I doubt if I would ever want to take a second to catch my breath.

                He made the audience chant some words like “I love you, Timbaland” and we (my friends and I) will scream, “I love you, Timberlake!” It was so funny that we were laughing so hard and we didn’t realize that were being too loud. But we just don’t care. Timbo can’t hear us anyway. We get to sing along to some of his songs like If We Ever Meet Again (with Katy Perry on the big screen). The lighting was crazy. Very nice!  The Jojo came and performed the song Lose Control with him. She then took over the stage and sang Too Little, Too Late. I was a bit disappointed at her but it didn’t matter. I was there for JT.

                There was a 10-minute body-bumpin and body-gridin’ mixes from Timbo’s DJ. I guess that was to prepare us for some Timbo-and-JT performance. They fired up with Carry Out and the crowd went wild and gaga even when JT’s voice can be heard over but no sign of him on the stage. Everybody was screaming (even the boys) so loud but he has yet to show himself up. But everybody knows it was him. Timbo was kind enough to lend him the stage and kid JT about owing him a lot of money before doing so.

                JT was wearing a fisherman’s hat, a ckeckered open polo, a green shirt and a cargo pants and I don’t know what else under it. Ooops! Me and my dirty mind! Lol. It was a treat for everyone who watched the concert. I was just expecting for three or four songs since it was Timbo’s concert and he was just a guest. But he gave us more than what we expected. He did Summer Love, Until the End of Time (piano), Cry Me A River, My Love, What Goes Around Comes Around (piano) and his last song, Sexy Back with Timbo of course. He was dancing sexy the whole time. Uhm, maybe that was just me. And then there was the fireworks display.

                It was time to wake up but I was still hang over Timbo’s beatboxin’ ♪♫♪ Manila, Manila, Manila, Manila ♪♫♪ -C

 

                   

Music Fest 2010

                I’ve been a fan of American Idol since Season 3 with Fantasia Barrino, Diana DeGarmo and Jasmine Trias as the final 3. But I am not a Jasmine Trias fan just to clear things up. I am a Filipino and I am proud of her but I am not really impressed with her singing voice. In fact, I was rooting for Camile Velasco, another Filipino (half Filipino, one-fourth Irish and one-fourth Spanish) with low, sexy, and deep voice. Raspy voice as they like to call it. But she got eliminated in the top 8 if I remember it right. Okay, I realize I have been reminiscing too much when I’m supposed to talk about Season 8 and Kris Allen.

                

                 I haven’t been able to catch an episode of Season 8 since I am always stuck in the office during its air time and I wasn’t yet introduced to downloading a video during that time. Luckily, I was able to catch the Top 3 episode (performance night) while I was having dinner at the office pantry. I saw Kris performed an acoustic version of Heartless which was originally sung by Kanye West and right then and there, I thought I was in love with him. Then I found out that he sang it just like The Fray did but it didn’t lessen the love haha! I was so proud when he won the title over Adam Lambert who can hit a note like Mariah alternative-rock style.

                

                 So when I found out that Kris is coming over to the Philippines, I promised that I have to be there. Maybe not in the front row but I have to be there. So I dragged a friend who is so willing to come without the dragging part J We were so excited that we were already in Taguig by 4pm with the concert starting at 8pm. Well, also to avoid anything like that with the two Davids’ concert. Since we were there way too early, we decided to wander around Market! Market! Look around and eat. Then we took off to Bonifacio High Street Concert Grounds. Stupid! That ain’t the place to be! That dumb driver! Good thing the second cab driver knows where the McKninley Hill is. We were a bit early but the crowd is already growing.

                

                  The music fest started and the first performer was Boyce Avenue. The good thing about the venue is that the farthest section is elevated so we can see the action unlike in Mall of Asia concert grounds where you have to tip toe or jump or whatever it is that you can do to see the performance on stage.

                

                   I am not really a fan of remakes and re-doing a song so I wasn’t into the Boyce Avenue thing. But I guess a lot of Filipinos like them. They wouldn’t be coming over and over if there is nobody inviting them. I believe they’ve been here three times already. In fact I heard one of them say that Manila has become his addiction right before they sang Ne-Yo’s Because of You. Perhaps that’s part of the script. After a few songs, oh was it really few? Anyways, they have to leave the stage and give it to the next performer. Next please! Haha! That is so rude of me! I’m sorry.

                

               Next performer, Jabbawockeez! I LOVE JABBAWOCKEEZ! They didn’t just take over the stage, they owned it. I enjoyed every bit of their performance. I was dope! I was like,Wow! Wow! And Wow! I was hypnotized. Enough said.

                 

                    And then there was him, Kris Allen of course - the reason why I went to see the concert. I almost forgot. Damn Jabbawockeez! Haha! Thank you, Lord for that wonderful and awesome experience. He may talk like a boozer but he still is hot. I love it when he said, “I like it here. The weather makes you sweat.” Come on Kris, just say that it’s hot in the Philippines ‘cause it really is.

                

                  Good thing I have his album so I know most of the songs and I enjoyed his performance ‘cause I know a lot didn’t. I am aware that most people in the crowd didn’t come for him. In fact, some were cheering for Adam while Kris was singing upstage. How rude was that!?

               

                   Kris went down to invite some of the audience to join him and sing Alright with Me. The ladies went crazy and took a lot of pictures with Kris and didn’t want to go back. Kris was like, “Okay, as much as I want to have a picture with you but I have a show to finish.” Enough ladies! You’re lucky enough. Let him finish the show. My feet are hurting because I’ve been standing and a few times jumping for four long hours.

               

                   Just like every song has to end, the show was over. We have to go back to reality and I have to find my way to bed because I feel so tired. Too bad the taxis are not enough for the entire music fest crowd. We only got to hire a cab at 2am. So uncool! That’s two hours of waiting. #UNCOOL! -C