Hiding Place

WELCOME TO MY THOUGHT CORNER!

This is my personal "hiding place" where I can talk about my feelings and thoughts freely; the perfect corner where I can give life to my daydreams and complain about my reality; an escape to share my kind of crazy and keep my sanity. I love words that rhyme and that is not a crime. This is a mixture of darkness, butterflies and confetti. If you're still reading this then it's working so go ahead and enjoy the rest of it. - C

Saturday, July 11, 2020

Saturday Currently Vol. 3

     So hello! Wow! It's been two years since the last time I wrote a "Saturday Currently" entry. When I started this I thought I will be able to keep it up-to-date at least once a month and here I am struggling to write even once a year. So much for planning and expectations. Well, anyway, I found myself free again after the cancellation email that I received today. I was working on a personal project that I cannot reveal right now but I will in due time. Not that anybody cares but I just love reading my writings when I have free time. It brings me back to those moments that I was writing about. Guess I like reliving the past. :) I don't believe in "saying what you feel when you feel it" but I believe in "writing what you feel when you feel it". ;) And before this entry goes to a different direction, let me update you, or myself, or whoever is reading this. 

CURRENTLY

Reading


The notes that I wrote a couple of weeks ago. And some flashcards about the things that I need to remember. I miss reading an actual book though; the one with real stories, real twists and endings. My books have been accumulating dusts on the shelf.

Writing

I'm actually editing the writings that I did in the past. These writings are the blog entries that I was supposed to publish but didn't feel right or didn't have enough words to actually mean something or make sense. As I've mentioned earlier, I believe in "writing what you feel when you feel it". And I practice what I preach. So now, those feelings are all in my personal folder and I need to reduce it

Watching


I've been switching from watching a brutal Crime Watch Daily episode to a light Hallmark Christmas Movie to a documentary about Jeffrey Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell. But the last movie that I saw was the Desperados on Netflix. It was very much like the Ibiza movie.

Thinking

About a certain file needed at work that I need to automate. I was planning to do that when I opened my laptop but I got distracted when I saw the unfinished writings on my personal folder. I have to start working on that file which is due next week.

Wearing

Why did I include "wearing" in this??? It's a filler I guess. Well right now I'm wearing a distressed t-shirt (holed and ripped) which I got from Stradivarius. My mom would've hated it but I love it. I'm also wearing a swimming shorts which I like wearing after shower and before changing into a more comfortable pajama pants.

Eating


Sun-Maid raisins and having a little vodka with strawberries and strawberry juice. It helps me to sleep since my body clock is so messed up since the lockdown and curfew started because of the Covid-19. 

     We are still on curfew right now and since I am not obligated to go to the office in the morning, I am pushing my boundaries to stay up until I can and now my body is used to it. I'm supposed to be on furlough leave but I still have to work and support from time to time. I will be back in the office next month and the budget season will soon start so this is the right time to update everything personal before work sucks all of my time and energy again. -C

Friday, July 10, 2020

Celebrate Us


 
     If you are a single woman in your late 20's trying to achieve more in your life, or a single woman in your mid-30's enjoying the fruits of your hard work by doing whatever, or a single woman in your late 40's very much accomplished and still enjoying life, then maybe you are tired of people asking you when you are getting married, right? Well, I'd say keep enjoying life. You do you, girl. 

     Not everyone has the same set of goals. If your friends' goal is to get married and have kids, maybe that’s not yours. If your coworker's goal is to be a housewife, maybe you don't like that. If your neighbor's goal is to buy a house and a car, maybe it's not yours or maybe you already have them. What I'm trying to say is... everyone's priority is different. The problem is that people around you think you are incomplete, despite all the accomplishments, because you don't have a man. That doesn't sit well with me. I mean, I am a strong  and independent woman. Is that not enough? Am i not enough? Do we still live in an archaic world where women are viewed as human beings second to men? *eyeroll* So much for women empowerment.  

     Let women be successful, cheer for them, cheer for us! When we achieve a goal, don't tell us that something's missing, tell us we're doing amazing. When we reach a milestone, don't tell us that we're now ready for marriage, celebrate us and encourage. Women are meant to do great things, push us to do it, lift us up. Not that we need lifting but let us not tear each other down.

     It is really tiring to have to hear and answer the "when are you getting married?" question as if it is inevitable like death. People asking this need to be reminded that getting married and is also a choice. Just like buying a new pair of shoes or taking a nap in the afternoon or eating dinner. You can choose not to do it. In the end, it is your life -- your decision, your choices, your rules. -C