I'll be turning 31 in a few weeks and I've never felt better. This start of the year has been the most stable I have ever felt -- financially, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Except probably for my feet. My itchy feet will always be restless; always wanting to try something new. Maybe traveling is my always and wandering is my forever. :) -C
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
Sunday, January 28, 2018
The Journal That I Never Had
I wanted to write about something but I still have so many drafts in
my folder, some are too short to publish while some contain unfinished
thoughts. So here I am compiling everything in one entry so they don’t go to
waste. While doing so, I felt like I’m reading my journal, except, I don’t have
a journal. There are some dates though that I don’t recall and some writings
that I don’t remember the story behind. I’m just glad that I write about my thoughts
whenever I can rather than talk about it with another person because it might
put me in trouble. Tee-hee! Okay, here goes nothing.
UNHAPPY
August 6, 2016
I can handle being tired but I cannot handle being unhappy.
I can handle being tired but I cannot handle being unhappy.
Growing up, I never felt
the need nor the want to work abroad. My mother was against it too so I guess I
was fine working in the Philippines. Despite the
situation, I still ended up here – abroad. And now I feel like I’m being robbed
of seven months of my life. I’m earning money but I'm losing my life.
August 10, 2016
Then:
I gave up an Incubus concert (can you imagine that? a freakin’ Incubus
concert!) to which I have filed a vacation leave for just to finish a project
because someone in position needs it. In the end, I was reprimanded for a small
detail that I overlooked. Of course my “hard work” was appreciated but then
again, people forget all the good things that you’ve done when one thing goes
wrong.
Now:
I spent 3 days, barely sleeping, just to finish a report for someone, also in
position. One cannot imagine the level of stress I had while doing that report
and people around me following up for a lot of other things. In the end, no appreciation,
not even a simple “thank you” from that person. And now, it looks like more
people are not happy that I provided that report. I’ve been chastised count of
times and I’m not hearing the end of it.
It
takes away my drive to perform at work every freaking time. One minute I’m “one
of the best” at what I do, the next minute I’m being questioned why I’m doing
things I’m not supposed to do. This job is confusing me.
COOL DOWN
October 1, 2016
Whenever I’m mad at someone, I create different scenarios in my head with the perfect lines to get back at that person that I’m so mad at. But then our paths will cross again and I’ll realize that I’ve spent so much time imagining that my temper had simmer down. Either that or my non-confrontational self will take over my bad ass self who is hidden somewhere.
Whenever I’m mad at someone, I create different scenarios in my head with the perfect lines to get back at that person that I’m so mad at. But then our paths will cross again and I’ll realize that I’ve spent so much time imagining that my temper had simmer down. Either that or my non-confrontational self will take over my bad ass self who is hidden somewhere.
WEAK HEART
November 27, 2016
Either this situation will turn my heart ice-cold or I will have to go back home because my heart is weakly designed to face this kind of environment.
Either this situation will turn my heart ice-cold or I will have to go back home because my heart is weakly designed to face this kind of environment.
STAY
February 12, 2017
There are days when you wanted to stay and there are days when you ask yourself why you stayed. You think about your financial needs so you hold on but then you also have to think about your sanity so you weigh the options.
I don’t want to live like this. I don’t want to live in fear. I don’t want to live with too much pressure. I’ve had enough of that.
There are days when you wanted to stay and there are days when you ask yourself why you stayed. You think about your financial needs so you hold on but then you also have to think about your sanity so you weigh the options.
I don’t want to live like this. I don’t want to live in fear. I don’t want to live with too much pressure. I’ve had enough of that.
PRIORITIES
February 28, 2017
Think
about your priorities. What’s important? What makes you happy?
TRUTH
March 21, 2017
Why I rarely ask questions? Because most of the time, I know the real truth which is different from the truth that people are going to give me if I ask. I’m not saying that people around me are liars but I’m pretty sure that everyone is hiding something.
Why I rarely ask questions? Because most of the time, I know the real truth which is different from the truth that people are going to give me if I ask. I’m not saying that people around me are liars but I’m pretty sure that everyone is hiding something.
GOOD INFLUENCE
March 21, 2017
There are people you NEED to be around and there are people you WANT to be around. I remember hearing this from one of the commentators in a basketball game. Me, I want to be around people who are good influence – people who will inspire you to be a good person.
There are people you NEED to be around and there are people you WANT to be around. I remember hearing this from one of the commentators in a basketball game. Me, I want to be around people who are good influence – people who will inspire you to be a good person.
MOTHERS’ DAY
May 13, 2017
I did not realize the importance of Mothers’ Day until I lost my mother. So to everyone who still have their mothers with them, please greet them while you can. It may be as simple as a greeting but I’m sure your mothers would appreciate it. Shower them with love.
I did not realize the importance of Mothers’ Day until I lost my mother. So to everyone who still have their mothers with them, please greet them while you can. It may be as simple as a greeting but I’m sure your mothers would appreciate it. Shower them with love.
WORTHLESS
May 16, 2017
Have you ever wonder what you purpose in life is? What if today is your last day on Earth? What would happen when you’re gone? Will they mourn, will they cry? Will they miss you, will they even notice?
Have you ever wonder what you purpose in life is? What if today is your last day on Earth? What would happen when you’re gone? Will they mourn, will they cry? Will they miss you, will they even notice?
FREEDOM
September 20, 2017
I used to dream of getting married and having my own family. Then I discovered traveling and along the way I fell in love with my freedom. I found out that there is so much more the world can offer and I cannot see it if I am confined in a relationship.- C
I used to dream of getting married and having my own family. Then I discovered traveling and along the way I fell in love with my freedom. I found out that there is so much more the world can offer and I cannot see it if I am confined in a relationship.
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