I'm Forgettable

 

When relatives send their invitation, you are “and family”

When acquaintances send their gifts, you are “and friends”

When friends introduce you as the smart one

You will be easily forgotten.

 

You are about to do a talk with two other speakers.

The presenter has to pause to read your name from his notes

because your name is difficult to remember and so is your face.

Who will remember?

 

When you walk into a meeting

And people refer to you as somebody else.

They remember the other person more

‘Cause you are not remarkable.

 

You are sending reports regularly

But when inquiries come in

It goes to your superior

Simply because, your name, they cannot recall.

 

Every instance, every action

Every simple word and reaction

Every introduction or invitation

In your heart and mind it stays, unforgettable. -C

Saturday Currently Vol. 3

     So hello! Wow! It's been two years since the last time I wrote a "Saturday Currently" entry. When I started this I thought I will be able to keep it up-to-date at least once a month and here I am struggling to write even once a year. So much for planning and expectations. Well, anyway, I found myself free again after the cancellation email that I received today. I was working on a personal project that I cannot reveal right now but I will in due time. Not that anybody cares but I just love reading my writings when I have free time. It brings me back to those moments that I was writing about. Guess I like reliving the past. :) I don't believe in "saying what you feel when you feel it" but I believe in "writing what you feel when you feel it". ;) And before this entry goes to a different direction, let me update you, or myself, or whoever is reading this. 

CURRENTLY

Reading

The notes that I wrote a couple of weeks ago. And some flashcards about the things that I need to remember. I miss reading an actual book though; the one with real stories, real twists and endings. My books have been accumulating dusts on the shelf.

Writing

I'm actually editing the writings that I did in the past. These writings are the blog entries that I was supposed to publish but didn't feel right or didn't have enough words to actually mean something or make sense. As I've mentioned earlier, I believe in "writing what you feel when you feel it". And I practice what I preach. So now, those feelings are all in my personal folder and I need to reduce it. 

Watching

I've been switching from watching a brutal Crime Watch Daily episode to a light Hallmark Christmas Movie to a documentary about Jeffrey Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell. But the last movie that I saw was the Desperados on Netflix. It was very much like the Ibiza movie.

Thinking

About a certain file needed at work that I need to automate. I was planning to do that when I opened my laptop but I got distracted when I saw the unfinished writings on my personal folder. I have to start working on that file which is due next week.

Wearing

Why did I include "wearing" in this??? It's a filler I guess. Well right now I'm wearing a distressed t-shirt (holed and ripped) which I got from Stradivarius. My mom would've hated it but I love it. I'm also wearing a swimming shorts which I like wearing after shower and before changing into a more comfortable pajama pants.

Eating

Sun-Maid raisins and having a little vodka with strawberries and strawberry juice. It helps me to sleep since my body clock is so messed up since the lockdown and curfew started because of the Covid-19. 

     We are still on curfew right now and since I am not obligated to go to the office in the morning, I am pushing my boundaries to stay up until I can and now my body is used to it. I'm supposed to be on furlough leave but I still have to work and support from time to time. I will be back in the office next month and the budget season will soon start so this is the right time to update everything personal before work sucks all of my time and energy again. -C

Celebrate Us

 

 

     If you are a single woman in your late 20's trying to achieve more in your life, or a single woman in your mid-30's enjoying the fruits of your hard work by doing whatever, or a single woman in your late 40's very much accomplished and still enjoying life, then maybe you are tired of people asking you when you are getting married, right? Well, I'd say keep enjoying life. You do you, girl. 

     Not everyone has the same set of goals. If your friends' goal is to get married and have kids, maybe that’s not yours. If your coworker's goal is to be a housewife, maybe you don't like that. If your neighbor's goal is to buy a house and a car, maybe it's not yours or maybe you already have them. What I'm trying to say is... everyone's priority is different. The problem is that people around you think you are incomplete, despite all the accomplishments, because you don't have a man. That doesn't sit well with me. I mean, I am a strong  and independent woman. Is that not enough? Am i not enough? Do we still live in an archaic world where women are viewed as human beings second to men? *eyeroll* So much for women empowerment.  

     Let women be successful, cheer for them, cheer for us! When we achieve a goal, don't tell us that something's missing, tell us we're doing amazing. When we reach a milestone, don't tell us that we're now ready for marriage, celebrate us and encourage. Women are meant to do great things, push us to do it, lift us up. Not that we need lifting but let us not tear each other down.

     It is really tiring to have to hear and answer the "when are you getting married?" question as if it is inevitable like death. People asking this need to be reminded that getting married and is also a choice. Just like buying a new pair of shoes or taking a nap in the afternoon or eating dinner. You can choose not to do it. In the end, it is your life -- your decision, your choices, your rules. -C

What's Wrong?

 

What’s wrong with saying I love you
when it’s really how I feel about you?
don’t doubt me when I say these words to you
because I mean it, I really do.

I’m not asking you to say it back
I just want you to accept it as a fact
but don’t ask me to take it back
‘cause that would really suck.

What’s wrong if I say I’ll stay
look at me, hey!
I can see your tears at bay
listen to the words I say.

"People always leave"
those are the words you’ve always believed
I’m not one to deceive
I’ll prove it to you for as long as I live.

What’s wrong if I say I care?
don’t tell me not to, that would be unfair
I can tell your hesitation by the way you stare
you don’t have to say it, I’m very much aware.

I know you’re strong and independent too
and it’s not something that you’re used to
Well let me be the one to tell you
It’s time to let somebody look after you.

What’s wrong with saying how you feel?
does hiding make it unreal?
I understand that this is a big deal
but baby please end this ordeal.

You don’t have to pretend it’s something you hate
we may not be sure about destiny or fate
let’s make it happen, make it worth the wait
hold my hand, let’s take a leap of faith. -C