Unbecoming

         I used to be shy and quiet and then I became friends with someone who is friends with everyone. I became sociable. I learned to start a conversation. I learned to do the small talk. But I also learned to talk nonsense. I try to talk about things as if everything is interesting. I've learned to make a story out of nothing. I've learned to lie just so I can go on having a so called "conversation". Honestly, I don't like the person I'm becoming. I have to go back. Bring back the same guarded person but with less inhibitions to start a conversation and more sensitivity knowing when to stop talking and start listening.-C