How Can You Love Her When I Love You So Much?

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                There are a lot of quotations, movie lines and passages I know that I thought I can relate to or in a way I can apply in a certain situation in my life. Then I came across this line cited by a girl who, apparently, is so much in love with a guy then I realize, this is the best line that can describe how I feel for a special guy. This is the best line that I should tell a guy -- a guy that I dearly love, but I know I can’t.

                

                  It started with the big “maling akala” that all is fair in love and in war. Sobrang mali talaga! I thought anything can possibly happen but when I get older and get to think maturely, I have learned to assess the possibility of things to happen. I’ve learned to accept the things that are impossible to happen. Lastly, I’ve learned to give up on battles I know I can never win before I lose.

                “How can you love her when I love you so much?” This is the best line for a loser like me. It’s like “Can’t we be together?” when you know that the guy has someone. It sounds too villain-ish isn’t it? Just like the flirty and slutty girl in every love story, the one who always try to separate two people in love. It’s annoying on the fans of the happy couple who love each other so much. This line is supposed to be a relationship-wrecker. I just hope I have the right and the power to tell that guy this line. And when I do, I hope to see what I supposed to see.

                ♪♫♪ What makes her so much better than me? What makes her just everything I can never be? What makes her your every dream and fantasy? ♪♫♪ These are lines from a song When It Was Me by Paula DeAnda, a song I can listen to over and over again. There is so much bitterness. Bakit ba kasi hindi pwedeng mahalin ka din ng taong mahal mo? Why someone has to suffer? Why should somebody be hurt? Is it really necessary in finding true love? What if that true love is the one that loves somebody else? I can go on and on but nobody will dare to answer me. There are no definite answers to questions about love. 

                Mas mabuti pa yatang hindi ka na lang matutong magmahal. You won’t be hurt. Sad part is, youll never be happy too. And love will find you no matter how hard you try to hide. Mas ironic pa nga minsan kasi yung mga nagtatago at umiiwas, sila yung hinahanap at pilit hinahabol ng pinagtataguan nila. Hide from it, wait for it or look for it… either way, LOVE WILL FIND YOU. So just pray hard that when love find you and try to break you, it won’t be as painful as everybody describes is.

                ♪♫♪ Life is beautiful but it’s complicated. We barely make it. We don’t need to understand. There are miracles, miracles ♪♫♪ So hopeful that I want to believe it. Well, I have nothing to lose if I do believe in it. It could bring me hope too. I can think that ‘we’ or ‘us’ is still possible as long as we are alive. Just like what the saying “what you think, you attract.” Sana lahat ng bagay ganun para lahat ng gusto kong mangyari iisipin ko na lang. And in an instant, it’s happening before my very eyes.

                “Our hearts, they need a break.” Siguro nga, pero kailan? O hanggang kailan? Should the mind decide for the heart? Or the heart should decide for itself? Pero ‘di ba dapat you never get tired of looking for true love? Or looking for the right one? Ah ewan! Sobrang dami ng sayings. At sa sobrang dami, contradicting na yung iba. Ano ba ang tama? Hayyy! So complicated. Swerte na lang ng mga may magagandang love story. Pero sabagay, they won’t have great love stories if it wasn’t for the hurt and the pain that they have gone through. -C